Friday, March 7, 2008
i duno y evytime xin qing bu hao den i lyk to scribble/draw on my foolscap lyk sum zi bi zheng person... what i scribbled today:
i really duno wat to say anymore
cos i cant do anythg to make my feelings known
e harder i tried to ctrl myself, e harder it is for me to do so
i'm really glad all these is coming to an end
whereby i can get a "new" life....
ok, promised to blog abt tis.... lols, duno y cid lessons r so entertaining?!!! lihui, xinyu n i juz went crazy during cid lesson....we juz kept laughing for a gd whole 10mins or more... nt bad, beneficial to my jie fei ji hua??? lols...... duo y juz felt lyk laughing n laughing when there's actually nth much to laugh abt??? perhaps we r really deprived of laughter, lyk wat we concluded during cid lesson: "rvians lead sad lives".... but i nt tt depressed now though nv get As but at least gt lots of Bs so stl nt v can.... muz strive to succeed, cant gif up now!! =)
veng yi's bithrday ytd! n ss test! wishing her happy birthday again ^^ lols, i was really quite shocked when u said "can hug?".... felt rather sad tt i didnt really hug u cos i was sweating lyk mad n didnt dare to b too close..... ss test was rather ok, at least it wasnt as tough as i expected.... but i reckon tt tt is bcos i hav been tramaed by e hist test tt nth cud already b too shocking any more? T.T but e essay qns really came as a surprise cos its lyk a tinking qns... n e atq part actually dunit....den we were memorising tt part lyk mad.... so wasted, but stl was glad tt we dun hav to atq to conflict... n ss is lyk my oly hope left le.... haix....
i can feel tt im having weaker n weaker ctrl over my tears.... last time i can really ctrl quite well de leh, but now its quite tough to stop them from falling..... i muz master e art of fighting bck my tears in order to show others im nt emo.... but sumtimes dey r juz so insensitive tt dey always tink tt i dun talk/look angry cos i m angry at sum small little thgs wich is usually nt e case..... if u noe me well u shud noe tt i appear emo cos im really hurt n upset nt angry...... dey juz dun understand or rather dun bother to understand.... little thgs dey do really make me realise how small n unimpt i m to them... after being 4 so long as frenz (or mayb its oly tinking on my side), im nt even comparable to sum1 new..... tis is really hurful to noe..... its an awful feeling tt i m trying to get myself to b numb to.... but im really glad tt even if i dun hav them, i stl gt u 3.... u all cant leave me or i will b all alone..... u all r always e ones gifing me support mentally although u may unconcious of it.... im gng on cos i noe i hav u all...
veng yi's bithrday ytd! n ss test! wishing her happy birthday again ^^ lols, i was really quite shocked when u said "can hug?".... felt rather sad tt i didnt really hug u cos i was sweating lyk mad n didnt dare to b too close..... ss test was rather ok, at least it wasnt as tough as i expected.... but i reckon tt tt is bcos i hav been tramaed by e hist test tt nth cud already b too shocking any more? T.T but e essay qns really came as a surprise cos its lyk a tinking qns... n e atq part actually dunit....den we were memorising tt part lyk mad.... so wasted, but stl was glad tt we dun hav to atq to conflict... n ss is lyk my oly hope left le.... haix....
i can feel tt im having weaker n weaker ctrl over my tears.... last time i can really ctrl quite well de leh, but now its quite tough to stop them from falling..... i muz master e art of fighting bck my tears in order to show others im nt emo.... but sumtimes dey r juz so insensitive tt dey always tink tt i dun talk/look angry cos i m angry at sum small little thgs wich is usually nt e case..... if u noe me well u shud noe tt i appear emo cos im really hurt n upset nt angry...... dey juz dun understand or rather dun bother to understand.... little thgs dey do really make me realise how small n unimpt i m to them... after being 4 so long as frenz (or mayb its oly tinking on my side), im nt even comparable to sum1 new..... tis is really hurful to noe..... its an awful feeling tt i m trying to get myself to b numb to.... but im really glad tt even if i dun hav them, i stl gt u 3.... u all cant leave me or i will b all alone..... u all r always e ones gifing me support mentally although u may unconcious of it.... im gng on cos i noe i hav u all...
& some thgs were left unsaid...
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3/07/2008 10:20:00 PM
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