Monday, July 21, 2008
tt day, u told me abt tt... i really didnt noe whether it was 2 make me feel better.... perhaps nt so, perhaps its juz bcos u really felt tt & saw e need 2 tok 2 sum1.... im glad tt u chose me..... it makes me kinda more impt as ur fren.... i really really understand.... considering im lyk e most exped..... sounds gd 2 b e most exped?? mayb nt so in tis case ba! tts when i learn too, tt i hav nt learnt.... cos im juz 2 weak.... i wish i cud handle thgs lyk how u do it?? i gt 2 learn from u..... if nt i guess e 1 tt will suffer e most is myself.... cos im nt helping myself, being so negative...
i really cant understand y i cud lyk <3 tt so much, yet, there's tis feeling of hatred 2wards it too.... i dunno if i shud continue sudd, when once i was so sure of my decision.... its feels horrible 2 b juz a puppet.... lyk u r nth but a puppet.... y cant passion b e oly thg tts holding it n me?? i really hate it 4 being so practical n cruel...... i duno how 2 <3 it lyk i once did b4 anymore??? tts y im looking 4ward 2 nxt yr 4 nxt yr n i hope tt tis yr will end quicker?? so tt i noe i can b free n hav e chance 2 start anew?
juz invented tis method wich was found 2 b quite useful i guess... tts e oly way... nt here.... cos there, oly u n i noe evythg n there's no restriction... though its quite stupid cos im hav 2 undo wat i hav done..... but e amt of frustration n sadness tt can b fa xie is more than 5 times compared to tis..... but is tis really management??? i dun tink im 2 sure of tt....
& some thgs were left unsaid...
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7/21/2008 07:10:00 PM
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