Wednesday, July 30, 2008
i thot i wud b really happy or even touched.... but i didnt feel much of that, oly a little.... if it was in e past, i wud b, i believe.... but now, nt anymore i guess? if nt thgs wudnt hav come 2 such a state in e 1st place, isnt it? cos mainly, i didnt hav my hopes up when i did tt... den it hit me tt from e moment i hav made e decision 2 let it out, i hav oredi chose 2 let go.... i oways thot tt i was thot thru so long 2 make tt decision cos i feared tt wud hurt u.... but it seems to me now tt wat i actually feared was letting go of it.... i didnt 1 myself 2 hav nt much of a feeling abt tt.... i wanted to hold on... but now, im starting 2 c myself let go... perhaps till a pt tt whether or nt tt happens, it doesnt matter anymore....
was a really bad exp playing TABOO.... nono, i cant do tis la =(( juz imagine sum1 who is afraid of speaking up in front of ppl trying 2 play TABOO.... tts quite a LOL?? tis was my 1st n hopefully e last time playing tis game.... we juz dun go tgt.... n FYI, i DID NT volunteer 2 go up ok?? if i did, i muz hav bin crazy.... its a hist tcher call me go up de lo.... WADEVA, anw oredi diu lian le oso cant undo..... promise 2 myself: nv play tt again!! T.T
its kinda strange when it hav bin so long tt u hav tis feeling n its gone all of a sudden, lyk within days.... i really really dun tink of tt anymore.... no feelings, nth..... juz a stranger... no memories, no hopes up.... sounds kinda sad cos juz lyk tt few sentences of words being sent out, all my emotions n thots were oso sent out n returned 2 u?? mayb she's right, cos when i noticed thgs werent gng 2 b same, i did nt c e need 2 hold on le, nt lyk last time, when i was stl hoping 4 sth....
gng hav dinner soon.... YAY, yi xiang dao badminton 2mr, i feel so high!!! =DD lols.... though sadly, i tink my skills (if i hav them in e 1st place) will go sheng xiu aft nt playing 4 so long cos it has oways bin e case... but nvm, juz hav fun n b stressfree!!! =P i really nit tt....
p.s EL songs really rocks a lot!! (: sry 4 e lagness, but i juz realised...
& some thgs were left unsaid...
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7/30/2008 06:43:00 PM
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