Thursday, September 18, 2008
i realised wat all these was all abt.... or i hoped tt it wasnt really.... i cant believe tt they can b so unbothered abt tis... juz imagine e no. of ppl who were really kind but tt was sum poison thg tt they gt.... does $ min so much more than others' welfare?? tinking abt tis juz makes me feel sick.... i didnt even 1 2 continue e enthusiasm for i was too disappted... i really dun wan 2 endanger ppl's lives & believe me, we r innocent cos we didnt noe... but i was really happy abt tangyuan+shang yue! =) i'll rmb tt moment 4eva *o*
i noe it may sound scary 2 actually hear tt... but i really lyk those styles of writing, nt tt i wud do tt anw.. dun hav enuf yong qi... it allows ppl to b in suspense & e way they write make ppl tink or at least wonder.... i kinda hope i can write lyk tt.... its really cool & both reading & writing r really FUn! =D
i believe wat u believe in... yes, really... when u said tt, i noe u didnt care if tt hurts... but e harm is done anw & i cant juz erase it from my mind... e worst thg is tt i hav 2 try to 4get & fake up a smile when i c u (wich is omost evyday)... but i noe i cant, cos its gng to follow me for e rest of my life, isnt it? i dunit u 2 tell me tt cos i noe its luck too... & i noe i cant survive on luck 4eva... or mayb its all used up & i dun hav anymore left... i cant stop tinking its e case... bcos oly i noe how much i really went for it...
it may seem tt it was abrupt... but i really dun1 to b selfish... i hav no right 2 hold u bck 4 wat u want to do.... but perhaps its time 4 me 2 ctrl myself so tt thgs will go accordingly...
& here's a quote wich i really like *o* & i saw it while searching abt Helen keller:
"When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us."
tts all for today~~ (still tinking dou pi sushi though...)
& some thgs were left unsaid...
DEAR blog, u muz b really touched & appreciative of what i did cos i hav xi sheng so much & put in so much effort & time for you!! LOLs.... sounds rou ma.... but true enuf, i hav struggled to launch tis new skin using a short period of working time aft i made e decision on sat to make one.... feeling kinda high & proud now... LOL. but bcos of tis mission, i had to push all my posts till today & make sure tt there will b a 1st post wif tis skin.... so rewinding now~~
last mon, went to watch movie with my family.... its qian bu gou yong II... outing wif my family isnt really often so i hoped tt we'll enjoy ourselves... but to say e truth, i was sian diao when i noe we watching tis show... i didnt tink tt it was nice & wunt v interested....BUT.... aft i watched it, i nv regret watching it! =D its quite entertaining & yet touching.... i cried quite alot compared to e prev time i watched "10 promises wif my dog".... but it wasnt too embarrassing cos many ppl cried too! & oh my, e fan ban "we r s'pore" is really funny! =P i cudnt stop laughing...
disapptment is really an unbearable thg :( wasnt too prepared for tis.... or shud i say i expected way too much?? i sort of thot it will kinda help, but it didnt.... no diff, sadly )= i was quite da ji-ed for e whole wk & thot tt i had lose it cos it didnt occupy my mind at all lyk it oways did.... but thankfully (OR NOT), it came bck... i duno if i shud b happy tt i stl hav sum form of motivation or worried abt how my brain cant take it.... & it is a fact tt i hav oways treated these as tests of fate.... but e rules r nt fixed & it chges to make sure i pass wif flying colors... e most amusing part is tt i'll use e results 2 eassure myself tt YES, tis is present & im actually right.... isnt tt silly?
i cant understand y i hav to b so KPO... its none of my business & i cant care.... if u dun, y shud i? i duno y i shud put so much pressure.... currently im stl struggling to continue to believe tt u r who u r, e person i noe... but im losing it.... my mind is telling me its nt e same.... but i dun hav any right at all... though im oso suspecting my own intention... isit to prevent u from getting hurt? or isit tt im being selfish?
i really lyk 2 run away when i feel confused.... cos i 'll choose to avoid rather den sort it out lyk i shudnt.... haix... i dun1 2 become ur pressure & i dun1 to chge anythg bcos of my own tinking.... its feels really bad & i really dunno how to hande thgs e right way...
& for gdness sake, they are juz cold hard figures! rather than spend e time toking nonstop abt them, y nt use e time 2 show ur concern 4 those who nit it?? tts juz so lyk rubbing salt on their wounds & its really insensitive....
ok, gtg 4 dinner....
thedreamer.
9/18/2008 04:29:00 PM
Monday, September 8, 2008
last mon, went to watch movie with my family.... its qian bu gou yong II... outing wif my family isnt really often so i hoped tt we'll enjoy ourselves... but to say e truth, i was sian diao when i noe we watching tis show... i didnt tink tt it was nice & wunt v interested....BUT.... aft i watched it, i nv regret watching it! =D its quite entertaining & yet touching.... i cried quite alot compared to e prev time i watched "10 promises wif my dog".... but it wasnt too embarrassing cos many ppl cried too! & oh my, e fan ban "we r s'pore" is really funny! =P i cudnt stop laughing...
disapptment is really an unbearable thg :( wasnt too prepared for tis.... or shud i say i expected way too much?? i sort of thot it will kinda help, but it didnt.... no diff, sadly )= i was quite da ji-ed for e whole wk & thot tt i had lose it cos it didnt occupy my mind at all lyk it oways did.... but thankfully (OR NOT), it came bck... i duno if i shud b happy tt i stl hav sum form of motivation or worried abt how my brain cant take it.... & it is a fact tt i hav oways treated these as tests of fate.... but e rules r nt fixed & it chges to make sure i pass wif flying colors... e most amusing part is tt i'll use e results 2 eassure myself tt YES, tis is present & im actually right.... isnt tt silly?
i cant understand y i hav to b so KPO... its none of my business & i cant care.... if u dun, y shud i? i duno y i shud put so much pressure.... currently im stl struggling to continue to believe tt u r who u r, e person i noe... but im losing it.... my mind is telling me its nt e same.... but i dun hav any right at all... though im oso suspecting my own intention... isit to prevent u from getting hurt? or isit tt im being selfish?
i really lyk 2 run away when i feel confused.... cos i 'll choose to avoid rather den sort it out lyk i shudnt.... haix... i dun1 2 become ur pressure & i dun1 to chge anythg bcos of my own tinking.... its feels really bad & i really dunno how to hande thgs e right way...
& for gdness sake, they are juz cold hard figures! rather than spend e time toking nonstop abt them, y nt use e time 2 show ur concern 4 those who nit it?? tts juz so lyk rubbing salt on their wounds & its really insensitive....
ok, gtg 4 dinner....
& some thgs were left unsaid...
thedreamer.
9/08/2008 06:18:00 PM
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