Friday, October 3, 2008
things have happened again in tt way... i wud say exactly e same kind of cycle.... the one tt led me into believing all of these... they are crap really.... now tt it happened juz lyk before, im more convinced tt what i once so strongly believed in is just rubbish =x yea, its sad to noe, but i tink tt its gd to noe.... its gd to realise it so tt i can give it up & not b affected by this anymore.....
i really feel very irritated to know that i have been so influenced by such stuff.... it juz stays in my head so long & it cant go away no matter how hard i try to chase it away.... it makes me angry, so angry tt i feel lyk kicking the person can.... how could you?! wo hen bu de abuse this person ok.... i really hate you for occupying so much of my brain & life.... go away! i dun1 to c you again la.... BUT after much thought, i feel tt mayb i cant blame you, but myself ba, so maybe i was juz being angry at myself....
its not all too nice to be reminded of tt.... e amt of hurt i once felt.... how i was insulted by you.... mayb i shud thk you for reminding me of tt, bcos i feel much stronger after e breakdown..... now i only noe tt i shud prove tt & i wunt b so easily hurt e nxt time.... but unfortunately, though i gt over tt, im still bias nonetheless... & i guess it wunt change.... & i have to thank xinyu & sinyee for eventually making my day... thx, my mood totally changed for e better! =P & maybe you too... (for e really really little thg)
although i really felt tt i hated you alot at tt moment, i have failed to continue e hatred already... i guess i cant bring myself to do it.... tts y i had secretly & silently prayed for you.... i really hoped u have received my blessings! ^^
oh no, im contradicting myself again =(( who was e one who said she wanted to forget abt all this in e early part of e post? ohs, wadeva?
& some thgs were left unsaid...
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10/03/2008 01:33:00 PM
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