Sunday, November 9, 2008
i really not zi kua-ing ok.... but i really feel tt i can write quite well!! =) oly in chinese though~ esp when i have super roaster-coaster like emotions? i duno la, juz xin xie lai chao type words on microsoft word den felt these rush of emotions though my body.... e chunks & chunks of chinese words on e word document juz look lyk yi pian ge ci & its looks pro LOL... i cant believe i actually broke down while typing & i tried hard to see what i was typing cos of my eyes were blurred~ u will see it if you are meant to see it...
aiyo, actually i really like writing in chinese a lot lo~ i wanted to write all my posts in chinese lo, but i tink sumtimes cant see e words, den i feel so fedup cos a lot of alien looking stuff make my blog look so ugly... zzz...
really really realised that for all this while, i was just attempting to have this imaginary figure to yi kao zhe.... it's amusing tt i realised so much later rite? lyk after 8 mths or so... well done, Si Lin! u shud b leaving already no matter how hard i wud want to try to hold you back.... i noe i just cant say byebye nicely, with a sweet smile or anythg till there's another.... just lyk last time isnt it? i was hoping tt that was it u noe, as simple as last time~ but for all i noe, tis time i mite hav fallen deeper... but i wud still insist tt i wunt cross e line, or i pray tt i better not...
unlike most ppl, i tink im not feeling fan over this at all? cos i noe what i wan... but why isit that i dun hav e courage to put tt down? so weird~ maybe deep down, im really scared ba?
nonono! i cant stand myself lo~ y do i keep trying to put myself in her shoes leh! T.T thinking of how it wud feel lyk to be as lucky as her... aiya, its juz a show mah, oso nt reality~ but e sad part is exactly tt! :( emos~ i must agree that books & shows really can corrupt teenagers' minds.... e mass media is mean!!! #$%@# but u noe, its still nice to gan shou tt type of xing fu de re zi (although its fake =( ) ~~ but no worries cos, a wise man once said that as long as you are willing to wait, e happiness that belong to you will come! =D lets b hopeful abt tis!! =PP
so much stuff to do actually~ duno how to go about doing them~ $$$! i nit you... lols.... its holidays le but is till feel occupied leh? i guess tts a gd thg ba... better than being bored all e way.... kaes, tis post is getting too long~ jiu dao zhe li le!
& some thgs were left unsaid...
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11/09/2008 05:32:00 PM
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